24.2.06

wish i could write humourously like T but i can't

:(

my little black laptop isn't breathing smoothly (i think his fan is a bit ill) so i'm concerned about it, and from now on i will let him take a rest whenever i can..

bought a cd (Seafood!) and was introduced to: Isobel Campbell and Mark Lanegan, KT Tunstall, The Secret Machines, etc, plus I use myspace and Musicmatch jukebox to listen to more music.

But nowadays I just want to play my Kid A CD by Radiohead... (didn't like this cd before...)
'you can try the best you can,
if you try the best you can,
best you can is good enough...'

So so so much work! but I'll grumble no more-->useless worthless~~

My friend R is in pain (sick at heart), but I could do so little about it--> i'm vexed with myself for being a bad friend...

Let me post here (again) a poem S wrote quite a while ago..

不得不

親愛的 不是在越洋電話那頭
我於你 卻還是不夠靠近
不能止住你的傷心
不能回答你的憂鬱

同樣的問題在我的黑白日記本裡
幻化成不同的語氣
不同的符號表情
依樣反覆的詰問
這些日子 這些恍惚中的凝視 這樣過

也許我只學會了一件事
就是人的韌性
根植於古老物種的求生意志 時而殘忍 時而柔軟而甜蜜
直到我放棄掙扎向宿命論靠攏

不得不告訴你 擦乾眼淚 去睡吧
或是在你的音樂裡麻醉

所謂最後的決定
不論此刻看來有多頑固
隨時會跟著天氣反覆變換自己的抑制/意志
亦呼應著那遙遠不可知的宇宙黑洞

有一天我們會明瞭這個夜晚它獨特的意義的

4 comments:

Andy said...

I am surprised that it has taken you such a long time to warm to Kid A. That is a great album, and good evidence of the amazing talent of Radiohead.

Richard said...

Do you have the secret booklet? In some of the copies of Kid A there's another booklet behind the bit you put the CD on. It's very cool.

wanchen said...

What happened to those fans who didn't get that booklet? must be very disappointed...

1u, very cheerful lunch break with you today!

Andy said...

I got that booklet, and it is very cool. The artwork that comes with Radiohead CDs is always great, and another reason to buy them rather than download.