me me me me me.....
me me me me...
I've finally started to feel fed up with myself always rambling about 'methinks....' plus I think I'd had enough of self-pity and seemingly-everylasting-helplessness.
***A new beginning***
After experiencing all the self-doubts, sorrows and loss-of-love situation, I've found some positive aspects!
For a month, new music (including classic stuff that I had never come across with before) keeps entering my life. So delightful! New stuff, new friends, new books, these things are alway sources of joy. I feel I am learning! Forgot how much I loved learning...
And environmental protection issues are now even bigger issues to me. Wake up, everyone! We've only got one earth!
'But you don't really care for music, do you?'
I've also finally realised that I should stop being so eager to please others all the time. What do I think, what do I want, are more important than 'what do people think I think' and 'what do people want me to do'. If I express my opinions well enough, people will thus respect me too.
'You live, you learn. You love, you learn.'
Am I repeating myself?
Am I making the same mistake yet again?
What a morning! A parcel from home made me shed tears in the kitchen. THE ORANGE PEN FROM MY BROTHER. (he's so sweet to have remembered this.) Now I've got 4 more CDs including the coolest 'the edukators' soundtrack.
'fill it and thrill it then turn back to kill it just gimme the laughter again .... you're so easy to love, smile away my pain...'
It's always comforting--to know that I'm loved, dearly, absolutely.
Life is beautiful.